Recently, my father deemed me "Nerd of the Century". *shakes head* Sadly, it's a very true estimate.
Since graduating from college this past May, I have found myself becoming far more introverted than ever. Instead of finding bliss in spending time making new memories with my friends on a Friday night, I've chosen the more sublime route...reading textbooks I should have read while I was in school, attempting the NY Times crossword, alphabetizing my DVD and CD collections, organizing and re-organizing files and folders on my computer, making new spreadsheet templates in Excel, and occasionally perusing my Medical Dictionary.
This is definitely NOT what I thought would become a "fun" time after college.
I feel like I'm so far away from who I thought I was that I've fallen into a state of depression. I miss the life I had and now feel like I'm trapped in "adult life" prison!!
But then I pull out my Bible and it's like all that goes away...All I hear is the voice of God crying out to me, "My precious, I have you right where I want you. And this is not all I have for you...just keep holding onto me and I will take you to places you've only dreamed of...and far beyond!"
It's just so difficult to remember that everything in this life is ephemeral. In Ecclesiastes, Solomon writes, "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven"
I've always heard this spoken by people who claim to know about life...but never have I truly believed it until just a few months ago. This verse now serves as a stark reminder that the time the Lord has given us here on earth is precious and that we must do everything we can to use it serving Him...but also we must stay within the confines of His time...
We must not become anxious as David did and run to the Philistines for a quick fix to escape our problems...but instead follow the examples of Jesus and Mary, who both sat at their Lord's feet and waited for Him to direct their paths.
The world wants to distract us and tell us that we are not where we are meant to be...that we must have taken a wrong turn somewhere along the way...that the road we are currently on will not lead to where we want to go...but how do we know it won't led to exactly where we want to end up?
That my friends, is where faith comes in to play. We must have faith that God is who He says He is...that He is I AM. If we always turn back to that, we have no reason to question Him or His timing. He will never leave us or forsake us. That is His promise.
So, on those lonely nights when you feel like a nerd because you don't have anyone to hangout with or anything "interesting" to do...remember that Jesus is there and maybe, just maybe, you are alone because He wants an audience of one.
